tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84956270246158974992024-03-14T03:31:46.831-07:00The Best KindIf you’re lucky in life you have someone who will ask "How are you?" and wait for your answer.
If you’re really lucky you can answer truthfully, “Best kind, b’y, best kind.”Ringmasterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17386697436604334185noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8495627024615897499.post-21480816947190638512016-03-01T08:06:00.002-08:002016-03-01T08:06:21.805-08:00A NEW VIEW<i>"Oh no! Where did it all go! Did I just imagine it all?"</i><br />
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No, you aren't crazy - there used to be a blog here, dozens of posts where this wee little one now lives alone.<br />
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I started this blog several years ago when I was trying to figure out how to be "the best kind". And guess what?! I figured it out! Well for the most part anyway...<br />
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I am looking at life through a new lens. No, I didn't just get glasses or a new pair of shades nor am I wandering about with my monocle or Sherlock Holmesing it up with a magnifying glass - it's bigger than that. So much bigger. Are you getting excited yet? I sure am. But I'm not quite prepared to tell the tale, at least not just yet.<br />
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I'm going to take the next little while to go go back through all I learned through this blog journey. The really exciting thing is I'm convinced that with this new frame of view I'll learn even more than I did the first time around when I wrote and shared the posts with you. But for now this is a very personal stage of my journey. I hope you'll understand. I promise to share with you when the time is right, ok?<br />
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In the meantime, please take good care of yourself and keep always striving to be The Best Kind. You are loved.<br />
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Much love,<br />
The Ringmaster<br />
<br />Ringmasterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17386697436604334185noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8495627024615897499.post-14073584559061969242013-08-02T17:38:00.000-07:002016-10-31T07:43:44.875-07:00JUST DANCE<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="color: #b45f06; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">** October 31, 2016. Tomorrow I start ballet classes. I was invited by a friend. Despite never taking a dance class in my 40 years of existence I said to her "You know what, life is short so why not just give it a whirl, right?" Am I afraid of all the leotard will reveal about my recently resurrected Netflix & Doritos addiction? </span><span style="color: #b45f06; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Am I a little concerned that I might fall on my face in front of everyone or make a complete fool of myself?</span><span style="color: #b45f06; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> </span><span style="color: #b45f06; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well the odds are pretty good but I'm not afraid. I wrote this post three years ago during a rough time. These past couple weeks I have watched helplessly as others grapple with grief and pain. I have been reminded of the fragility of life & our deep-welled capacity for sorrow but I have also witnessed the resiliency of the human spirit, our ability to sing and celebrate life in the face of loss and adversity, our ability to dance in the rain. RL</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">When I was a little girl I wanted to be a ballerina. It was
possibly the 'girliest' thing about me. Most of the time I played in the mud,
climbed trees in my ratty jeans and white sleeveless undershirts and went fishing with dad. But
still I dreamed of one day being tall, beautiful, lean and graceful like Karen
Kane. Living 45 minutes from town and the nearest dance lessons </span><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">(and we all knew pretty early that I'd never be tall), </span><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">it was a dream
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEMZGBp5oCNLe5yEMYEYRjln9dQMcsyx0pyMjgkYxRf-X5WngK4afK653qlZ5ruQrBTxdgeK3iUa-8VI-v0L9OC-RvfX2GMzgEZJn5N2UqYrrDXNyTGMCDq0KKscmX2DyJ_rjDzH2Wip9t/s1600/1_edit.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEMZGBp5oCNLe5yEMYEYRjln9dQMcsyx0pyMjgkYxRf-X5WngK4afK653qlZ5ruQrBTxdgeK3iUa-8VI-v0L9OC-RvfX2GMzgEZJn5N2UqYrrDXNyTGMCDq0KKscmX2DyJ_rjDzH2Wip9t/s200/1_edit.jpg" width="191" /></a><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My dad worked his skinny butt off at the gypsum plant in town.
Every year his company gave all the workers an allowance for work boots, small
pittance for such hard work but he was a grateful man. While most of the men
put their chunky steel toe boots through double duty not only at work but hunting
and so on, dad kept his in good shape reserving them for the dusty hard work at
the factory. One year he decided to give us girls his gift certificate for
National Shoe Store on Broadway, a big name on a small shoe store on an ironically named street in that little town.
We hunted through the cramped store trying on pair after pair until I saw them:
pale pink leather ballerina slippers. Real ballet shoes! I insisted on getting them
and mom caved – I was a force to be reckoned with. My mom even sewed a
crinoline tutu for me. I danced on every square inch of available floor in our
tiny bungalow in the woods in those shoes. In those moments I felt alive, like
anything was possible, like maybe a bony little girl from the woods could grow
up to glide across the stage like Karen Kain. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Fifteen years ago when my son was critically ill, I spent my
days a long way from home between the children’s hospital and my cramped hostel
room across the street. The ICU nurses had to kick me out everyday. <i>Go get some
rest</i>, they’d say, <i>go have a shower, we’ll call you when he’s awake</i>. For about a
month I lived between those two isolated worlds: the beeps and bustle of the
ICU and the deafening quiet of my tiny room. My parents made the trek across
the province to be with me for a week. In those days it definitely got louder
in the hostel room, especially every blessed night when when mom snored (omg) but I was going a little stir
crazy and just plain anxious for my little babe to be well. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi3bXX2Jc04Upng9BI8avC75gl5hSoenOIz0wPdZhcyIhRX2Bdz1jbrP8-WJrb0okdh4mSZINi70gmA98byxARArq0sGUwrnUUj3bZ6ABMSfc1bp30eo2ULmXW6RL6r_1X41HPLcKZ7dcL/s1600/IMG_00000888.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi3bXX2Jc04Upng9BI8avC75gl5hSoenOIz0wPdZhcyIhRX2Bdz1jbrP8-WJrb0okdh4mSZINi70gmA98byxARArq0sGUwrnUUj3bZ6ABMSfc1bp30eo2ULmXW6RL6r_1X41HPLcKZ7dcL/s320/IMG_00000888.jpg" width="320" /></a><span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As it tends to do on the East Coast, one day, as I was
getting ready to go back over to the hospital, the skies, blue seemingly only a moment
before, cracked wide open. The rain bounced a foot off the pavement of the
parking lot outside and the summer heat seemed to begin to dissipate almost
immediately. Something inside me cracked at that moment also. I pushed the
screen out of my ground floor window, climbed barefoot out into the downpour,
lifted my arms and head to the sky and just danced. There was something
therapeutic, something about it that cleansed more from me than the summer heat
caked on my skin. I felt alive, like anything was possible, like maybe a very
ill little boy could heal and that someday this would all just be a memory. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">A few days ago, my sister told me she had written a song for
me. Given her talent and our lineage it didn’t really surprise me but I waited
anxiously to hear it. What on earth could I have possibly inspired. She’s known
me for 37 years so who knows what stories she could tell in song or otherwise... I
haven’t seen her in a couple years and being a thousand miles away I am very thankful for technology. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVM57oIAupI&feature=youtu.be" target="_blank">I got a link to this youtube video she made of her singing and playing MY song in an email this morning. </a>I was so moved to know
she had thought of me but I was soooo not ready for the emotional upheaval that
was about to hit when I hit play. It has been a few difficult years for reasons
I won’t get into – my sister is one of very few who know what the past few
years have brought for me. But she remembered a time when I was stronger, more
resilient, when in the face of life changing chaos I would climb out into the
rain head high, arms open wide and just dance. I’m not much of a crier but I
bawled like a little girl when I watched this today. Never have I felt more
loved. No matter what cloud you are
under, I hope you have some good company there and I hope you look up to the
skies and dance.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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